Do I love my children

Weird cardiologist asked me if I still love my kids. I think he was attempting to identify my support structure. With no legs, it might be hard to undergo cardiac procedures without help. When I lost my second leg, I kind of forgot. I got out my hospital bed to pee and tried to walk. … [Read more…]

What is a friend?

I think I might have a friend that I often see occasionally in person. As a near complete shut in, this is a fairly unusual thing. I keep in touch with friends on line, but in person not so much. Every human being in my face to face life is paid to be there. My … [Read more…]

Confronting mortality while measuring urine.

01/29/2026 – Just back from new pain shrink. Asa teen I read the book on which the 1976 movie Logan’s Run was based. Same general plot. You turn a certain age and they kill you. It was population control. You can run, but they find you and kill you. In the book, its a pleasant … [Read more…]

Monsters are good at hiding.

I once knew a male and female couple. For my tastes, he was a bit too literal when it comes to scripture. But no serious warning signs. Both seemed like fine people. They came with a great back story. As I remember, she left an abusive relationship with with prepubescent daughter. He kind of swooped … [Read more…]

How We End

Pandemic means global. Not everyone contracted covid, but it is still spreading. Eventually, almost everyone will have had it. Lets round up to everyone. To a near medical certainty, long covid can cause frontal lobe damage. Some studies indicate it is progressive.Does the world seem a bit nuttier than normal?Do people seem a bit meaner … [Read more…]